So first, I have to share something that happened at work today that made me realize how much people don't realize that it isn't always easy to get pregnant. I was talking to one of the girls in my office about a mutual friend, here is the conversation:
Co-worker: "Is C. still trying to get pregnant?"
Co-worker: "STILL? OMG how long have they been trying? It feels like FOREVER ago they told us they were going to try for #2! "
Me: "Well, I think its been 9 months."
Co-Worker: "That is soooo long. I never knew it was so hard to get pregnant, did you? It makes me worried! Doesn't that freak you out? It make me want to try soon so I'm not too old. Poor C.... By the way, when are you guys going to start trying to have kids?"
So goes my life as an undercover fertile!
So right now I feel like we're at a standstill for the moment with our IF journey, but not for long! I've decided not to wait the three months post-HSG out as my GYN suggested. I think she's fantastic, but she's not exactly the most aggressive in moving forward and now that we actually have coverage for an RE I really think we should take advantage of it. I've asked around and done some research and am currently deciding between two of the top IF doctors in Oregon. I was thrilled to find out that both of them are in my health insurance's network of doctors! They have fantastic success rates which is so encouraging and is bringing the hope back.
I asked Rob the other day when he thought we should schedule a appointment and he suggested we wait until the end of this cycle. Although more than anything I'd like to make an appointment for, well, yesterday, I'm going to go along with it because really want Rob to know his point of view matters and that I'm not the one making the descisions. So far he hasn't had the chance to have a lot of input. Most of the treatment and testing so far have come from my doctor and have involved my own body, so I think by agreeing to wait this cycle out he gets to be an active participant. I mean, he's certainly an active participant in one way...get it? Ok, lame joke. We've agreed to make the appointment for the beginning of next cycle. Apparently these two doctors are really proactive and there would be a possibility of an IUI as soon as next month. I'm so excited at that possibility. I'm really hoping that this step forward gets us out of this limbo we're in. I feel so good about this, I really do!
“Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up.”