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Monday, May 17, 2010

Lucy In a Nutshell...

I took a hiatus from my blog to do something very important and glamorous...like get really, really sick. I don't just mean blow your nose kind of sick, no. I mean, can't get out of bed, throat so sore you can't swallow, face feels like its going to explode with pressure while you, cough until you can't speak kind of sick, just in time for Mother's Day. 

Aside from my horrible sickness I've been enjoying my little family as usual. Lucy is talking up a STORM lately. She is such a smart girl. Sometimes too smart. Recently when she would do something she shouldn't I would say "Lucy, look at me" in an attempt to be stern and explain to her why we don't throw a cup or whack the cat with her book. She would usually laugh at me so I assumed she didn't understand what I was saying. Wrong! We were in her room one day and she was playing around while I put away her clothes and I heard her talking to her stuffed bear. She was sitting the bear on her little table, looking it straight in the face and saying "Yook a Me...YOOK A ME" I almost died laughing. She's smart as a whip, and she's got the attitude to boot. I wonder where she got that...

Lucy at 16 months
She runs instead of walks and doesn't cry usually if she falls. Carries an old, (naked) baby doll and my old stuffed bear (from when I was a baby) around with her everywhere (she rocks them constantly "wockababy, wockababy"). She loves pasta, preferably tiny Trader Joe's cheese ravioli, especially with my homemade tomatoe sauce and meatballs She can feed herself, albiet messily. She likes her gold shoes better then her black ones ("pwit-ahy"). She loves playing in the dirt and getting really "dirtay". She could spend an hour ouside digging in her makeshift sandpit underneath our hammock. She is incredibly smart and already knows the words to her books that I read to her at night before I say them. Her favorate book at the moment is Harry the Dirty Dog. She can count to four. Her favorate number is 9, (she'll yell out "NINE" after eight when you count to ten). She likes to go "wimmin" in the bath. She's started calling me "Mommy" instead of "Mama" and "Daddy" instead of "Dad Dad". She loves to smell anything that grows, something her Daddy taught her from when they walk around our herb garden and pick the herbs and smell them, which means she picks the leaves and flowers off of all my plants and walks around smelling them. She loves cantelope, watermelon, kiwi and apples. She goes to sleep like a dream but 95% of the time wakes up to snuggle in the middle of the night, (feel free to judge me, I don't mind it one bit). She's tall and skinny with a big head, 21% for weight and 85% for height and head (its that big brain in there). She gives a LOOK like you wouldn't believe, somewhere between and eye-roll and a sigh that makes me think that I've got it coming to me when she's a teenager. She got a haircut (well a bang-cut) last week and looks so much like a big girl it makes me want to cry. She's the most amazing thing ever. Ever. I love it. Every minute. 

'In spite of the six thousand manuals on child raising in the bookstores, child raising is still a dark continent and no one really knows anything.  You just need a lot of love and luck - and, of course, courage. "
-Bill Cosby, Fatherhood, 1986


Monday, April 26, 2010

Something sparkly...


picture from Swamibu via Flikr

Diamonds are supposedly a girl's best friend, not this girl. Don't get me wrong, I love a beautiful piece of jewelry as much as the next gal, however, today I received a gift of sparkly variety that is way better than diamonds in my humble opinion...
 
I came home today to a totally clean house. Now I'm not talking a picked up house, I'm talking a CLEAN house. Shiny, glossy, sparkly CLEAN. Best of all it was a complete surprise. Let me tell you what has been done here:
  • carpets vacuumed
  • 5 loads of laundry done, including diapers
  • floor swept and mopped
  • dusting/glass cleaned
  • sink scrubbed
  • all dishes done
  • dogs bathed
  • dog BEDS washed
  • BATHROOMS CLEANED, and I mean CLEAN
  • Windowsills even wiped down
...and that is just what I've found so far. I don't even know when he found the time to do it today in between work and studying for a midterm tonight. I cannot believe it. Don't get me wrong, he helps, and I wouldn't even call it helping... we each do our share to keep our house up to my ridiculously high standards (I admit it, I am obsessive when it comes to cleanliness).l He is one helpful guy--he makes dinner 6 out of 7 nights a week (hey, he's a chef, its expected), does the dishes, makes the bed in the morning, picks up after himself. helps me deep clean on weekends and he always does all the yardwork in our large yard...but all this? Wow.

I got home after a long day at the office to an empty house (he's at school on Monday nights) and "ahhhhhh" the only thing I needed to do was give Lucy a bath and pop her in bed and and then just relax. Remember self? Remember the meaning of the word? Let me help you out, Define: Relax:- become less tense, rest, or take one's ease; "He relaxed in the hot tub"; "Let's all relax after a hard day's work. Ahh yes, now I remember...its been awhile.

I could do whatever my littler heart desired. Update the blog? Here I am. Peruse my Google Reader, done. Check my work email, yep (what can I say, I simply cannot relax completely, so sue me). Sit and watch junky TMZ and Extra...oh yes. I don't remember the last time I had a night like this. Where there was nothing I felt like I needed to do. I feel like I should be doing something but there is literally not.one.thing. I need to do.

I don't feel like I deserve this, I'm so exhausted half the time that I don't feel like Rob gets half the attention he really deserves. How did I get do lucky? Amazing. Absolutely amazing. Makes me even more excited on the new journey that Rob and I have decided on lately. Want to guess what it is? Have a try...

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person."
-Mignon McLaughlin






Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Walking Lady and Other Random Thoughts...

I've been slacking on the blogging lately, but honestly, it is just hard enough to just keep up with life in general, let alone sitting down to blog. Tonight though the Mr is at class and Lucy went down at 7:00 pm on the dot without a peep, so immediately I grabbed a(nother) glass of wine and settled myself down on the couch with The Office on in the background. And..."ahhhhhhhhhh". Breathe.

I had something good to write tonight, I've always got ideas in my head that I think of throughout the day (and quite often in the middle of the night) but tonight, as I sit here in a (incredibly infrequent) moment of complete quiet and solitude, I cannot think of a single thing to write. So I apologize for the mish-mash of random updates and thoughts tonight. Blame the fact I get up at 4:45 am most days...or the 2 glasses of wine I'm in the process of imbibing. You choose.

So, a lot going on right now. The biggest news? Miss Lucy Lou is walking...er..make that running. She's been hanging on to things for months now and has been really tentative about just letting go and suddenly over the past couple weeks she's been a walking fool! She always requests to "wa" in the house, to the car, in the store...everywhere! No more Mama carrying that big girl around,no sir! She is going places -- fast! It's so cute most of the time she just takes off at a little tip toe run. My big girl!

One thing about Lucy that I haven't shared before? She's got the most adorable low, throaty voice. When she laughs it is all gravelly and low, totally hilarious coming from such a tiny,dainty, sweet looking girl! She says lots of words now, her current roster includes: "Apple" "Cat" "Mama" "Dadad" "Book" "Down" "Up" "Pupup" "Done" "Bath" "Mine" "Doll" and, of course, the ever wonderful, "No No No".

I don't have a whole a lot of other news. When I'm not working I'm with Lucy and Rob. Pretty simple really. I still miss her like crazy every minute at work, so that it still tough and honestly, I don't know if that will ever change...

So, since I'm blabbering randomly tonight and am contemplating a third glass of wine (its hard to type and hold a glass of wine you know, a girls gotta have priorities) I'm going to leave you with some of out latest pictures over the past month or so:

Our Life In Pictures:
  


"These boots are made for walking, 
 and that's just what they'll do
one of these days these boots are gonna walk all over you."
-Nancy Sinatra


Sunday, November 1, 2009

Pole Dancing Therapy...

Got you attention, right?

So today I took my first Pole Dancing/ Strip Workout class. I almost didn't go for a variety of reasons -- not wanting to give up my time with Lucy, having a sore throat, not wanting to show how absolutely awkward I really am to a room full of strangers...to name a few. I went though.

I hesitated mostly because I cherish every moment on the weekends with Lucy. I get so little time with her during the week that come weekend time I rarely ever go out and do anything on my own. Ever. Ask I my friends, they haven't seen me in, oh, about 10 months. To be absolutely truthful I'm perfectly happy not socializing or having outside interests, not doing anything but hang out with my girl. There, I said it. I'm not saying its right, but its true. I've become that mom. But something tells me that 10 months into this motherhood thing might be a good time to branch out a little, especially doing things that are for a couple hours only. A mom with other interests, be they few and far between, is a better mom for it. Or so I hear. So I sucked it up and told myself that from 2-4 pm is usually Lucy's naptime anyways and went.

Let me let you in on a little secret about myself post-baby. Since Lucy has been born I have felt feel about as sexy as this:

...and that's on a good day. I'm skinner than I've been in years, almost down to my wedding weight of 128 lbs. and I still feel, well, blah. There isn't really any other way to describe it. I just have a very overwhelming blah-ness that I see when I look in the mirror. I feel like now that I'm a mom it is just too hard to separate Mom-Bev from Sexy-Bev...in fact, Mom-Bev has just plain taken over and there just isn't room, or time, for Sexy-Bev. Man, she's so bossy that Mom-Bev...

I used to feel sexy without trying hard at all. I mean of course I had my off days, don't we all? But I'd like to say pre-baby I felt good about myself more often than not. Not to toot my own horn but, damn, I looked good. Cute body, nice hair, put together clothes, I wore a little makeup but still looked young and fresh, and pretty hot (ok, now I am tooting my own horn. Shamelessly).


Nowadays, my hair has gone wild post-pregnancy (and by wild I really mean wiry and gray, yes gray!), even with the weight loss I still have a woobly muffin around my middle and even with makeup on I still look...blah.

So, if you haven't figured through my long explanation, I am need of some major help in the sexiness department so when a friend of mine at work invited me to a Pole Dancing/Strip Class I was intrigued. So I went, and I'm glad I did. I'm not going to go into the specifics of the class (I did get to swing around the pole though), but I will tell you that I got some much needed perspective on sexiness. That is, I still can be sexy. Yes, it'll be awkward at first, but sexiness is like that old adage of falling off a horse, you just need to get back on again no matter how scary (by scary I mean ridiculous) it feels.

I'll back back for the next Pole Dancing/Strip class next Sunday... It may take a little while but I'm bringing sexy back.

"I think the quality of sexiness comes from within. It is something that is in you or it isn't and it really doesn't have much to do with breasts or thighs or the pout of your lips. "
-Sophia Loren

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Congratulations to YOU Anonymous!...

In my comments from my whiny, complainer post on Tuesday was this:

"Maybe this will make you feel better: after 3 years of trying to conceive, I found out TODAY that my IVF was successful. I'M PREGNANT!!! "

...from an Anonymous reader. Thank you Anon, your comment made me smile from ear to ear when I read your news. It made me think about the moment I stood in our bathroom in the early morning hours on that April morning and stared and stared at that positive pregnancy test in blissful, incredulous disbelief.

Oh Anonymous, congratulations to you!! Best wishes for a healthy and happy pregnancy. Savor it...it goes by so fast and then before you know it you will have this amazing little person and your life will never , ever be the same in all of the best ways possible. I don't know you from Adam but I am so happy for you. Honestly, you will look back on the last three years and will know that it was worth every second of disappointment and heartbreak, and strangely enough you wouldn't change it for the world.


" Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself..."How did I get through all of that?"
-Anonymous


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Lame...

Disclaimer: I am going to complain. I am very tired. This may not make sense and very possibly may be incredibly boring. You have been warned.
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I'm tired. So very, very tired. I wanted to write a nice long bloggy blog about my adventures in breastfeeding... but I'm just too tired. I feel like my brain has just.plain.stopped.working.period.done.Do not pass go, do not collect $100. Ugh.

The worst part? It's only Tuesday. TUESDAY. I mean, its not as if it is Thursday, and the week has been busy and is now almost over...no, I've only completed two work days but for some reason I just feel like I've been run over by a truck. And oh, correction, the worst part of it isn't that its only Tuesday and I feel like falling asleep while doing the dishes earlier, (literally, the thought actually ran through my mind "maybe if I just rested my eyelids for a moment..." Good think I didn't or I would have ended up head first into the soapy pasta pan, but I digress), its that the next three days of my work week involve me either needing to leave for work extremely early (6:30 am anyone, you know it is DARK AT THAT TIME NOW, unheard of!) or me staying late or just plain long (damn you safety committee, damn you to hell).

Not to mention I'm still only seeing my Lucy for an hour or two at night which just makes me sad. So, very sad. This sucks.

Sorry this entry isn't uplifting, interesting or funny (ok, maybe the mental picture of me asleep in the kitchen sink may be marginally funny to some, but admit it, its weak even for me). I've basically bored myself almost to sleep just writing this. I probably shouldn't even post it...oh hell, why not. On a positive note, I'm sure my next blog entry will be much better than this one, something to look forward to, no?

Do you have any hellish work weeks or exhausting stay at home stories to commiserate with me? Misery loves company...please do share!

"Love makes you smile when you're tired."
-Unknown

Monday, October 5, 2009

To Advertise or To Not Advertise...

So I signed up for the BlogHer Ad Network a little while ago and now that I've finished submitting all the information I'm starting to get cold feet. I'm just not sure I want to have some big, flashing advertisement on my blog. It looks so pretty now and to tell you the truth, sometimes when I go to blogs that have advertising I find it totally distracting. Now I'm not going to lie, I like the idea of getting the extra cash, but would it really be enough to make a difference?

What I do like, in terms of advertising on blogs, is what Simple Mom does on her blog. She has a a couple key advertises that sponsor her posts, and they really seem like products and services that are in line with her beliefs and style. I even went to one of her sponsors, Pear Budget, and loved it and just cannot get enough of it. I signed up immediately and have been using their budget tool every day. However, the down side of that is she has a pretty extensive, professional blog so I don't really think that is an option for me either. Nonetheless, I much prefer that sort of advertising.

So all it comes down is, do I really want to sacrifice my pretty new blog look, making it more commercial and less personal, for a a couple bucks a month? I'm leaning towards no... what do you readers think?


Let me know!

"Advertising is the art of making whole lies out of half truths."
-Edgar A. Shoaff

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I'm a Sap...

So tonight I went to read Lucy a story before bedtime and instead of our old standby, Wet Pet Dry Pet Your Pet My Pet, I decided to change it up a little bit by reading something new. What I happened to grab was I'll Love You Forever. Good grief, I got about a quarter of the way through the book and realized my eyes were welling up... ok, I lie, welling up is a definite understatement, in reality I had tears streaming down my face like when I'm cutting an onion. My question to the author is how the hell am I supposed to read this to my child without bawling like a baby?

Lucy, who had long lost interest in this silly book with nothing shiny to scratch or fuzzy to pull, turned to face me and was mesmerized, almost as if to say "What was this wet stuff coming out of Mom's eyes and WHY is she trying to snuggle me like this?" She reached up towards my face with a tiny finger, almost as if to wipe my tears away, and I was just thinking "Oh how sweet" when...bam! A tiny middle finger jabbed gleefully into my eye, followed by shrieks of laughter. She's a real sentimental one my Lucy.

What is your favorite bedtime story book? I need some suggestions, preferably some that won't make me cry!

"I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be."
-Robert Munsch

Friday, March 27, 2009

Coming Soon...

Me actually updating my blog. My computer died (RIP my poor abused laptop) a couple weeks ago and I haven't been able to update. I'm doing my taxes at the moment on my mother's computer (hurrah for paying too much during the year!) but will be back up and running with a new post about what baby sutff I've loved/hated, my cloth diapering experience so far and of course...MORE LUCY (she is getting so BIG, you all will be shocked)!

Stay tuned!

"Imagine if every Thursday your shoes exploded if you tied them the usual way. This happens to us all the time with computers, and nobody thinks of complaining."
-Jef Raskin

Sunday, December 14, 2008

SNOW!

So, as an Oregonian I am used to our newscasters promising snow in the wintertime and always being disappointed. This past week they've been swearing up and down that snow is coming and I've been skeptically watching the sky for the past couple day. Last night they SWORE snow would be here by this morning. Well, when I awoke to pee at about 5:00 I eagerly looked out the window to see...nothing. DIRTY LIARS! I went back to bed, disgruntled, that I had let them get my hopes up once again.

Fast forward to waking up at 8:00 (to pee again...of course) and what do I see when I look out the window. SNOW! And now here at 11:30 it is still snowing like CRAZY. Newscasters are predicting anywhere from 3-6 inches, which honestly is unheard of on the Willamette Valley floor. We had our company Christmas party planned for today and we're obviously giving it a pass as they're shutting down freeways and requiring chains on all major highways (we're in Oregon people, you may laugh but EVERYTHING shuts down for 1 inch, let along 3+!). It is so funny because every time we actually have snow the news programs always give the storm a name "Winter Storm 2007" or "Blizzard of '03", this name for this storm is is "Artic BLAST!", which sounds like a slurpee flavor to me but I'm sure the news stations think it gives the storm a certain je ne sais quoi? Non?

So we're holed up at home, all warm and cosy with a fire. I'm working on washing all of Lucy's 0-3 month clothes and blankets because I may have forgotten to mention this but I am ONE CENTIMETER DILATED! I know I could stay this way for weeks, but I found out at my appointment on Wednesday that I am 1 cm dilated and also some percentage effaced (this is why I shouldn't go to appointments alone, once she started talking about the dilation I totally didn't listen about my percentage of effacement). My doctor definitely thinks if I keep going at this rate Lucy will be here early. I even went as far as to comment, "Wow, I'm so glad I'm done with work on the 19th!" and my doctor laughed and said "I can't guarantee you'll even make it that far. Who knows!" EEK! How freaking exciting!!!! Although on the flip side I totally called Rob from the car on my way home panicking that I haven't packed my bags or washed Lucy's clothes or trained my temp for maternity leave. So much to do!

Armed with this knowledge my mom and I went out on a slight baby shopping spree yesterday (that and a little Christmas shopping too). I had returned the pack n play that I had bought since it ripped when I tried to put it together and I didn't really have any options for her to sleep in our room or downstairs, so yesterday my mom and I found a super deal on a this adorable, plush moses basket and stand at Home Goods (love the bargain shopping!) that will work great, and it totally portable to bring downstairs and into our room (and to Grandma's house when I go back to work). We also hit the mall and Babies R Us. It was crazy but I now have bottles and burp clothes and feel closer to prepared than I did before our "spree". We also finally got around to going to the fabric store so I could buy some super soft minky fabric to line the burp cloths (old school cloth diapers from Babies R Us) with using my new sewing machine I got for my birthday. I'll post pictures when I get them done!

So my next appointment is Wednesday, and we'll see if I've kept up the progress or not. I haven't had any contractions, which my doctor was very impressed with, although I had to remind her I might not even know what they are. Sometimes my stomach hurts but I always pass it off to the extra 35 lbs I'm lugging around!!

I have a funny story about our final birthing class and Rob's reaction to the post-labor discussion we had that I will save for posting tomorrow because according to my boss, we might not even be going into work (did I mention Oregon SHUTS DOWN when it snows? True story!).

Lastly, I will leave you with my most pesky pregnancy side effect right now...presenting my sausage legs/feet:



GROSS!!

"A grand adventure is about to begin."
-Winnie the Pooh

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

How Does My Garden Grow...?

Inside of course!

We officially cannot eat on our dining room table because the dining room is currently acting as my greenhouse to over 100 kinds of tiny baby flowers, herbs and vegetables:




Rob has promised to build me a greenhouse outside next year (yes, he is that handy!)... if only for the sole reason that he wants to be able to eat at the dinner table between March and May!



"All my hurts my garden spade can heal."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Ever Feel Like You're Being Watched...?

One more thing...I checked my Sitemeter, which records referring websites that visit my blog, and for the third time in a month my blog is part of a University Web Course discussion. I've also found a link to my blog from an online college course syllabus. I'd love to know why this is. Can anyone at University of California San Marcos enlighten me?

"I always feel like
Somebodys watchin me..."
-Rockwell "Somebody's Watching Me" circa 1984

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Liar Liar Pants on Fire...

I lied... again. No fabulous blog tonight. Why? What is wrong with me you ask? Well, I'll tell you. I just spent the last 5 hours since I got home from work doing our 2007 taxes. Then I spent the last 10 minutes starting at the Trubo Tax screen trying to figure out how the hell we ended up owing this insane amount of money. Also of course thinking about how owing this massive sum due to my self employment last year is going to affect our new fertility treatments with the RE. Basically I feel like crying after feeling so optimistic and excited yesterday. I still want to tell the story of my great RE, but right now I feel like I've been punched in the stomach. Damn this infertility! If we were normal fertiles and easily knocked up we'd have a child credit right now! I'm totally kidding...sort of.

I have to recover from this latest, though basically self inflicted, blow. This is what we get for having me of all people, attempt to do the finances. I suck... obviously. Please allow me to wallow in self pity for one more day and I will TRY and make my happy RE blog tomorrow. Though I'm not making any more promises, I obviously am not any good at keeping them!

"If you break your neck, if you have nothing to eat, if your house is on fire, then you got a problem. Everything else is inconvenience. "
-Robert Fulghum

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

I Am A Liar...

I promised a nice, long blog about today and I just cannot deliver. It is 10:00 and I *just* got home and am absolutely exhausted. I will tell the whole story tomorrow evening (I'm not lying this time) when I get off of work and don't have any plans for the night other than blogging, vegging on the couch and taking my Clomid (there's a teaser for you!). Today went really well. How well you ask? Well my friends, you'll just have to wait until tomorrow. It's a story worth waiting for I assure you!

Thank you everyone for all the well wishes!

"Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told: " I'm with you kid. Let's go."
-Maya Angelou

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