Tuesday, April 29, 2008

The Story...

Hello! So I know my blog was short yesterday and didn't go into all the details, but I was trying to let it all sink it...and it still hasn't. I feel like I'm in some kind of crazy, fabulous dream and that I'm going to wake up any moment!

First of all I have to thank all of you readers. I was absolutely amazed with the amount of support that I received! I knew people were out there reading, I thought 15, 20, maybe even 30 but this outpouring of encouragement and congratulations was so amazing. I honestly just could not believe it every time I went. You know that Elton John song from the Lion King? Can You Feel The Love Tonight,( which by the way always struck was as wildly inappropriate lyrics for a child's movie, but I digress), I CAN feel the love tonight! Thank you so much everyone!!!

So let's go back to Saturday night. Rob and I had done some shopping and happened to drive by a local dollar tree.

Me: "Do you think I should test tomorrow morning, before my Beta on Monday?"

Rob: "Sure, why not?"

Me: "Well I never test...it's like, my thing."

Rob: "That's dumb. Let's go get a test, where do we get one?"

Me: "Really? I don't know... I don't think I can. If I don't I'll have one more day of being possibly pregnant bliss."

Rob: "So you don't want to?"

Me: "No...er..yes...durr. I don't know. You decide."

Rob: "Ok yes, YES. We're going to get one."

So we ended up at the Dollar Tree, which by the way THRILLED Rob that you can get pregnancy tests for a dollar, so we bought two. I don't know why two, but that is what he grabbed. We went home and I put them upstairs thinking in the bathroom thinking, maybe I won't test. Maybe he'd forget and I wouldn't have to see a big fat negative.

Sunday morning. I work up at 7:00 having to pee like a racehorse and for some reason I suddenly had the urge to test. I was so sure they would be negative but hey, they're there and then I won't have to stress about it all day until Monday. So I open up the normal sized box and pull out what appears to be the smallest pregnancy test ever made. Is this a joke? This looks like it is made for Teen Pregnancy Barbie. The spot you have to pee on is insanely small, and I'm not kidding, it is the size of a grain of rice. At this point I'm thinking, what kind of aim do you need for these things? Then I found the eye dropper. WTH am I supposed to do with THIS? So since now at this point I'm half asleep, hopping from one foot to the other, desperately needing to pee, with a midget pregnancy test in one hand and a eye dropper in the other, I figure it might be a good time to read the directions. I read them...CRAP! I need a cup to pee in, then I use the eye dropper to squeeze out some pee and drop precisely four drops into the grain-of-rice-sized hole in the test. Ok then... Hmmm. Do I run downstairs and get a cup that will then forever be the "cup that held my pee and can no longer be drank out of" or do I pull a McGyver and find something to pee in here in the bathroom? I go for choice #2. So do you all remember the Prometrium into the toilet story on Saturday? Well, I got my refill but happened to still have the other bottle of ruined Prometrium in the bathroom. Hmm, that is cup shaped, no? So I dump out the meds and rinse out the prescription bottle. Yes, this is what it has come to. I peed in the rinsed out prescription bottle, and let me tell you...after opening the box, puzzling over tiniest test EVER, reading the directions and finding my makeshift cup this was sweet relief to finally get to pee!

I've figured at this point that if dollar tree is going to sell you a test for $1 they're going to make you work for this. You want to pay a dollar cheapskate? Well you're going to have to jump through some hoops to get this done, lady. So I take the eye dropper and drop four drops into the instructed hole in the test. Then I set it on the counter and stare. I know it is going to be negative, I just know it. In ten seconds up pops up the first line. ARGH. See this is why I don't test. I hold back tears and decide that, well, at least now I know. I can move on and out of limbo. I start to brush my teeth, blinking back tears, and look down again. Wait. WAIT. Hold ON. What is that??? Toothbrush falls to the sink and I grab the test. OH.MY.GOODNESS. Something I have never seen before, the fabled second line. It is light but it is definitely there. I cannot breathe, I really can't. I cannot believe this. I had to sit down for a minute, because I felt like I was going to pass out right there on the floor of our bathroom, tiny test in hand.

A minute later, hands shaking, I walk out of the bathroom. Remember that at this point it is about 7:15 am on a Sunday morning.

Me: "Rob."

Rob: "Uunnnrrmmmg."

Me: "ROB. WAKE UP!"

Rob (all bleary eyed and half asleep): "Hmmm..What's up babe?"

Me: "I think you need to wake up now."

Rob (suddenly sits up, awake now): "WHAT? Did you test? What? WHAT?It's positive isn't it?"

Me: "I did. I think it is positive. You look at it, you tell me. I can't believe it...::begin senseless blubbering and babbling::"

I bring it to him and we look. It is, in fact, positive. We are pregnant. We honestly sit there and stare at it, in disbelief. I don't think either of us actually thought this was going to work. Suddenly both of us break into huge smiles, I tear up, and he pets my stomach, "We did it. We did it! Oh my God we did it!" We snuggled down in bed and talked about it until we had to get ready for church at 9:00.

Rob rushes downstairs to make me breakfast while I get ready. I, being the skeptic that I am, decided that what if this test WAS wrong? What if I got one of those rare faulty positives? So I force myself to pee again in the prescription cup and take the second test. Up pop both lines this time, clear as day. I run downstairs;

Me: "Look, Look!!! I AM pregnant!"

Rob: "Did you take the other one? ::laughing at me::"

Me: "Yes, I had to know"

We go to church and I almost start crying during some of the songs because I truly believe that this is our miracle and I am so thankful for this chance. This thing that we have wanted for so long that is actually happening now. I still cannot wrap my mind around this.

We spend the rest of the day talking about the baby. We are incredulous. Shocked. Amazed. Stunned. Over the freaking moon.

Monday morning I go in for my beta, praying for a high number, something that will tell me this is actually happening, that this is real. The nurse calls back at 11:00 in the afternoon to tell me that my beta was great, 161.5. That congratulations, I'm pregnant. It's amazing how it felt even more real when an actual medical professional said it to me. You never know about that dollar tree, no one should have to work that hard to put pee on a stick!

That is my story. There are some things different than when I originally dreamed of a BFP. I imagined telling Rob in some fabulously creative way, something to really remember, instead in my shock and joy I yelling at him to wake up at 7:15 in the morning. Also, I always thought that when you get your BFP then everything is peachy. You're pregnant and that is the end of it. At least that is what I thought in the beginning. I know better than that now. For me, I get my BFP, I get my Beta #1, #2 and #3, I get several ultrasounds hoping and praying for a heartbeat, for continued growth, for no problems. It's almost like the first trimester is a test I need to pass. I've got weeks ahead of me where I am just hoping and praying 24 hours a day that I pass this initial test.

I wanted to share this on Sunday night, but there was people who check my blog that I didn't want to find out via blog so I kept it on the down low. You don't even realize how hard that "fake" blog entry was on Sunday night. I so wanted to shout it from the damn rooftops!

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for the support you've all shown me. Don't worry, I'm going to keep the blog going throughout this crazy journey. I hope you'll all come along for the ride or at least come and visit once in awhile.


“The child must know that he is a miracle, that since the beginning of the world there hasn't been, and until the end of the world there will not be, another child like him.”
-Pablo Casals

73 comments:

Jess said...

That was the best BFP announcement story I have EVER heard! I am laughing and tearing up, Congratulations again! I will continue to blog stalk you and I am sending doubly beta prayers your way tonight!

Who Needs Patience? said...

Awww, what a great story!! Congratulations again!!!

:)

ck2m said...

congrats again. I always wondered about those dollar tree pregnancy tests. Now I know the real truth. Hoping for triples and its twins. :)

Bridget said...

I am a fellow nestie and I just wanted to let you know that I am soooo happy for you! I usually am a lurker on your blog, but I had to comment to you. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

calgal1683

Jennifer said...

Omg-it's finally happened!!! CONGRATS!!! I just got teary eyed and told my husband, who was like..wha?? BEVS PREGNANT!!! I filled him in on the long wait. I never doubted for a second that this would happen for you. God bless! Can't wait to continue reading about this awesome journey you're now on!! PREGNANT!!! YAY!!!

Jen- (Edsdollfacejen)

bstanek said...

Oh wow, congratulations! I've been following your blog for awhile (I'm Brongemonger on the Nest) and I am so genuinely happy for you! I am in the hospital right now, I just gave birth to my twins. And your story has me tearing up. What a wonderful and amazing gift for you after 2 years of hard work! :-)

ptg said...

It's wonderful, isn't it!?

And if it makes you feel any better - how I told DH is the *exact same* - woke him up, and then jumped on the bed up & down. :o) It's the same gleeful joy, and because of your journey, I know it's all the sweeter.

Congrats again!!!

pollykinz said...

AHHHHHHHHHH!!! Congrats beaverly, I can't believe it!! So very happy for you and dh, can't think of 2 people who deserve this more. I hope you enjoy every second of it and have a fabulous 9 months. Way to go girl!! :-)

Katie said...

Wow.. your story gave me goosebumps. God is so good! I am so happy for you guys. It's gonna be smooth sailing from here on out, I just know it. Congratulations again on your tiny miracle :)

~Jess said...

I'm so glad you got your BFP: Here's to a happy, healthy 9 months.

I love your dollar tree story: Your reaction to that test, was about the same as mine was the first time I poas'd. Big box, with this tiny thing.

Casey said...

I admit it. My name is Casey and I am a lurker. Ok, the first step is admitting you have a problem, right? haha Congratulations! I did not suffer with infertility, but had to tell you this. I always spotted before my period started as well and I found out I was pregnant 2 days before AF was due b/c I was spotting and then all of a sudden it just stopped. So, I am so glad that I am a spotter! haha I now have a 16 month old! Enjoy pregnancy....it is truly a miracle! God bless! Praying for you and the little bun in the oven!

Katie said...

PS- I mentioned you in my blog :)

www.sbuxsweetie.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

That story made me tear up. I'm so happy for you! Congratulations!

Anonymous said...

SOOOO happy for you. You guys really deserve this. Your baby will be so loved, when they get older and see all that went into conception they will feel truly blessed to have parents like you. Your story is incredible...I am so happy for the happy ending! My little 2 year old son just came in and said "you cryin' mom...you okay", I said "yes Mommy's crying Chase but happy tears". He just smiled and said "oh". YOu just wait, motherhood is simply invredible! Congrats again...keep writing, we'll all keep reading!!!!

Katie said...

I have goosebumps for you! I felt like I was reliving my BFP! Congrats! What a miracle.

Anonymous said...

I am a lurker from the nest who has followed your story for quite some time. I am so very happy for you and your DH and am also tearing up at work.
Best wishes for a H&H 9 months!!!! :)

Elisabeth said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I'm usually a lurker on your blog as well, I found it through the nest, but I just had to tell you how excited I am for you!

SUZANNE said...

I love your story, I was all teary eyed reading it. I'm so happy for you guys! I'm glad you will continue your blog with your journey ahead :)

Erin said...

Beautiful story, made me tear up all over again!

I wanted to say that you did tell your husband in a fabulous and memorable way. How could it not be? Maybe it's not the elaborate announcement involving a onesie that some people do, but memorable? special? oh yes.

congratulations again!

Anonymous said...

from a complete stranger who came across your blog just a week or so ago...your last two posts have made my day! congratulations and best of luck for a happy, healthy pregnancy and baby(ies)!!

Anonymous said...

I just cried at my desk!! I am so happy for you! And my husband thinks it's so odd thatI am so happy for a complete stranger...

Paige said...

I'm still in a state of shock for you. How in the world did I become so attached to someone I've never met...I'll never know! Congratulations Bunnies! Hey where on earth do you find such GREAT quotes?

Jennifer said...

Such a sweet story and one that your child (or children) will love to hear over and over one day =)

Congrats again!

Cara said...

I've decided maybe I shouldn't read this at work - I've gone through about 1/2 a box of kleenex. lol.

You're such a talented writer, baby bunny is lucky to have you as a mom.

The Logans said...

Huge congratulations! I've followed you a little bit through the nest, and I was so pleased when I heard your news! All the best for a happy and healthy nine months of anticipation!

CheekyMonkey said...

Of course I'll be here reading up on you every day! I'm so terribly excited for you, it's such an amazing journey!!!! Congrats again!
tlee3369

Mrs. Jenna said...

YAY!!!!

Congrats! I'm so happy for you guys!

-fellow BOTB'er

Katiedid1806 said...

Such a fantastic story. Congratulations to an amazing couple, and here's to 9 months of healthy pregnancy!
::raising glass of milk, since wine is out of the question for both of us::

Anonymous said...

Another complete stranger who has followed you on the nest (does that seem stalkerish;)? Congrats and God Bless you and your family! Goosebumps!

Valerie said...

I have been following your blog forever! I am so happy for you and I don't even know you! Congrats!

Wishing you a Healthy and Happy 9 months!!

casicola said...

What an amazing story! Probably the best one I have ever heard....Congrats to you and Rob! So happy for both of you! I cant wait to reaed about your 9 months and then to see pics of your beautiful baby or babies lol

Mary said...

Congratulations! I check your blog everyday and I can't believe how happy I am for someone I've never met. Our baby is 7 weeks old and I still cry during some of the songs at church because they do make you think of what a miracle a baby is...so get used to that! :)

Suzanne said...

Those 2 lines are amazing aren't they. Congratulations again, I am so thrilled for you and your husband. Since I am also newly pregnant I will be following your story, hope you join us ladies in the 1st trimester nest. YAY!

The Devil Daughter-in-Law said...

I'm crying, too! I told my husband that I've never been so happy for a complete stranger! I absolutely LOVE Rob's reaction. It was priceless. Congratulations to you both!

Jen said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! I have goosebumps and teary eyes and I've never even met you. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You're a wonderful writer and I hope to read all about your journey from this miraculous point.

Momma Bean said...

I have been following your blog and have been really hoping you'd get a BFP. Congratulations!

Elana said...

Okay, so I'm a little late. I am so excited for you two. Congratulations and Good Luck with everything!

Andrea said...

Congratulations!!! And I totally agree about the Dollar Tree tests. I now stash plastic cups underneath our sink for those testing days!
Congrats again! H&H 9 months :-D

Stacey said...

Oh Bunnies, that is a wonderful story! Made me tear up a little :)

Congrats again, I cannot wait to continue reading as your pregnancy progresses!

Meegs said...

I thought you might like this onsie:
http://www.uncommongoods.com/item/item.jsp?source=family&itemId=13650

Very fitting.

Thank you so much for sharing your BFP story. So wonderful.

Lisa said...

Congratulations!! What wonderful news!!

stephanie said...

That made me CRY at my desk at work. What an amazing story. The best. Congratulations. I wish you and your new family ALL the best! I'll definitely keep reading. :)

Sully said...

Congratulations! That's wonderful news! You & your hubby's reactions to POAS were similar to mine...we finally bit the bullet as well. Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy!

Anonymous said...

I just heard! I'm thrilled for you and Hot Rob! ;-)

--Wonderwife

Erika said...

It just goes to show how much this world CAN be filled with little miracles......:D

Yes, we want ALLLL the gory details of your amazing trip along the way.

Heres hoping that everything runs smoothly.....:D...*crosses fingers*

Tabitha said...

Awwww, this is so exciting. I'm sending you all kinds of good vibes for wonderful beta #'s and ultrasounds. It's kind of funny because I could relate to so many of your blog entries as it was taking us so long to concieve and now here we sit you're four weeks pregnant and I'm 13!! Funny how things work out sometimes.

BecauseICan said...

I just wanted to extend more 'nestie' congratulations to you and your husband. Your bfp story made me a bit teary, I must admit. I am so happy for you both. Best wishes and lots of prayers.

annalynchmcclary said...

I usually just lurk, but had to tell you congratulations! I had tears reading yesterday's post and now have them all over again! Congrats!

ally and zane and avery said...

you dont know me, i dont know you, but i'm SO EXCITED for you guys! i'm sitting here crying (like most other readers :)) and joyful over the incredible journey you're embarking on. it's truly one of a kind!

Anonymous said...

Man, you made me cry again. What a great story. Congratulations!

Gloria said...

I have been a lurker on your blog for a while, and am SO HAPPY for you!! Congrats and enjoy the journey! :)

Tracey said...

I am late to this. I'm so excited for you!!! I've been pulling for you for so long. Congratulations.

Harmony said...

that was an awesome post! best story every hun!

i was laughing and crying for you- i am so excited you shared the story with us!

you guys are in my thoughts! i can't wait to hear more as you continue your journey!

i'm so happy for you! <3

orodemniades said...

Congratulations!!!

Anonymous said...

what a sweet BFP story! I know what you mean about just suddenly wanting to test - I was making some sort of dessert and it struck me to go do a pee-n-see, which was indeed positive...and I've always been a believer that it doesn't matter how you tell your husband, just telling him you're pregnant is exciting enough!
Congrats again!!

Jessica said...

i just found your blog last week and am so happy for your good news!

Lacey Jane said...

amazing! congrats! what a perfect story. I never comment because i don't want to creep you out- but of course you have lots of people who read this and pray for you and don't even know you at all. I can only assume that you don't mind :o) congrats again!

Anonymous said...

I am TRULY so flipping excited for you!!! You, Rob and your baby bean are in my prayers nightly.

Misty said...

You guys are amazing! Just thing, this is waaay more memorable than some cheesy, creative way of telling him. Congratulations, I'm still keeping up with your story!

ONE OUT OF SIX said...

I am tearing up reading this blog post. You captured it perfectly. I am ten and a half weeks and can't wait to get the hell out of this first tri "test" period! And then on to new worries .. I'm sure.

I love your BFP story. :-)

Tiff said...

Congrats! I remember you from the Nest from a while ago. I am so happy I popped into the 1st Tri board today and saw a post from you. You deserve all the best!!

Anonymous said...

How can I be this happy for a complete stranger?! I was hoping for you two and am so, so excited to continue reading your blog! Congrats!!!

tiggerladyjj said...

I am SO, SO, SO happy to come on here and see your fabulous news! I've heard a few BFP after IF stories lately and they're very encouraging. I'm in cycle 11 now and feeling like it's never going to happen for me, but then I see things that you write and it's funny, and heartwarming, and REAL and now you're pregnant. Yay!

OMG... how you described the Dollar Tree HPTs is EXACTLY how I felt the first time I used one. Everyone recommended them, but nobody told me how you have to use them! I invested in some small Dixie cups to keep in the bathroom. People can think they're for rinsing after brushing teeth if they want, but I know why I really bought them!

Congrats again, Bev. I'm really glad I've kept track of your blog after the BOTB Nest crap that happened. I will keep you, Rob, and your growing baby in my thoughts and prayers. :o)

~Jamie (Jamers125)

Lauren said...

Your story was so sweet! My DH's reaction was always "Is this real? Can we afford this?" LOL

Congratulations!

Jackie said...

Congratulations Bev! I did't have your blog saved in favorites at home, and I had to go on the hunt for it b/c I remembered earlier this wk that this would be the end of your 2WW! I am overjoyed for you... you guys have been through a lot (as have we), so I know that you are beyond extatic with happiness.

We are approaching the end of our 2WW, so still keeping our fingers crossed.

H&H 9 months to you!

Lanie said...

YAHOOOOOO!

bunnies that is amazing! h & h 9 months. this baby is lucky. take care!

Lanie26

becoming-mom said...

Sounds JUST like the way I found out, $ Tree test and all.. and me saying to DH "I think I see a line"! Not at all the way I'd planned on telling him, but priceless nontheless.

Megan said...

I'm so happy for you guys! I'm a Nestie lurker, and just had to give you a big CONGRATULATIONS! :)

My baby just turned one...his party was today...I just got done crying, and came in here and read this, and it cheered me up. :)

Jesse said...

Girl, I just can not wait any longer for a new post, and since I know you moderate your comments, I'm going to go ahead and say this here.

Please don't worry about those numbers not doubling. You are fine! I really don't think an RE would just drop things if there was any concern.

I am so happy for you, and I really need you to share your pregnant happiness. I need my fix!

Heather and Brett said...

Congrats. Loved the wonderful BFP story!

Anonymous said...

I just had to say congratulations again, and I cried happily reading your BFP story!

Anonymous said...

The WW Ladies Are So Happy For You! Please visit and Share your Excitement! Buttercupbev is PREGNANT!

Jeni said...

Hi Bev! I used to be a Nestie, (and we don't live too far from each other) and I used to follow your story. I was delighted to see your cute belly when I happened to check out your blog for old-times sake. :) I have already been told that my chances of conceiving will be slim, but your story gives me huge amounts of hope and inspiration! Congrats to you!

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