Sunday, November 1, 2009

Pole Dancing Therapy...

Got you attention, right?

So today I took my first Pole Dancing/ Strip Workout class. I almost didn't go for a variety of reasons -- not wanting to give up my time with Lucy, having a sore throat, not wanting to show how absolutely awkward I really am to a room full of strangers...to name a few. I went though.

I hesitated mostly because I cherish every moment on the weekends with Lucy. I get so little time with her during the week that come weekend time I rarely ever go out and do anything on my own. Ever. Ask I my friends, they haven't seen me in, oh, about 10 months. To be absolutely truthful I'm perfectly happy not socializing or having outside interests, not doing anything but hang out with my girl. There, I said it. I'm not saying its right, but its true. I've become that mom. But something tells me that 10 months into this motherhood thing might be a good time to branch out a little, especially doing things that are for a couple hours only. A mom with other interests, be they few and far between, is a better mom for it. Or so I hear. So I sucked it up and told myself that from 2-4 pm is usually Lucy's naptime anyways and went.

Let me let you in on a little secret about myself post-baby. Since Lucy has been born I have felt feel about as sexy as this:

...and that's on a good day. I'm skinner than I've been in years, almost down to my wedding weight of 128 lbs. and I still feel, well, blah. There isn't really any other way to describe it. I just have a very overwhelming blah-ness that I see when I look in the mirror. I feel like now that I'm a mom it is just too hard to separate Mom-Bev from Sexy-Bev...in fact, Mom-Bev has just plain taken over and there just isn't room, or time, for Sexy-Bev. Man, she's so bossy that Mom-Bev...

I used to feel sexy without trying hard at all. I mean of course I had my off days, don't we all? But I'd like to say pre-baby I felt good about myself more often than not. Not to toot my own horn but, damn, I looked good. Cute body, nice hair, put together clothes, I wore a little makeup but still looked young and fresh, and pretty hot (ok, now I am tooting my own horn. Shamelessly).


Nowadays, my hair has gone wild post-pregnancy (and by wild I really mean wiry and gray, yes gray!), even with the weight loss I still have a woobly muffin around my middle and even with makeup on I still look...blah.

So, if you haven't figured through my long explanation, I am need of some major help in the sexiness department so when a friend of mine at work invited me to a Pole Dancing/Strip Class I was intrigued. So I went, and I'm glad I did. I'm not going to go into the specifics of the class (I did get to swing around the pole though), but I will tell you that I got some much needed perspective on sexiness. That is, I still can be sexy. Yes, it'll be awkward at first, but sexiness is like that old adage of falling off a horse, you just need to get back on again no matter how scary (by scary I mean ridiculous) it feels.

I'll back back for the next Pole Dancing/Strip class next Sunday... It may take a little while but I'm bringing sexy back.

"I think the quality of sexiness comes from within. It is something that is in you or it isn't and it really doesn't have much to do with breasts or thighs or the pout of your lips. "
-Sophia Loren

18 comments:

Bridget said...

I totally know where you are coming from. I weigh less now then I did before I got pregnant, but I can't seem to get rid of that stupid muffin. I am running in my first race since I got pregnant so I am hoping that will motivate me to get my stomach looking the way it did before my son!

Gina said...

I just started reading your blog a few weeks ago, but I totally feel compelled to comment about this post. I know EXACTLY how you're feeling. From not wanting to socialize and just soak up all the babyness, to not feeling even the tiniest bit attractive post baby. However, I haven't found the motivation to do anything about it. But your post has given me some food for thought :) Best of luck on the classes! I think it's wonderful you've taken the initiative!

Anonymous said...

Oh my gosh, I'm right there with you on the lack of sexiness. AND I've got the wiry and gray hair too! Stick stright brown hair accented by crazy un-tameable gray hairs...beautiful! Haha!
Lauren, Mommy to Wesley (10.5 months)

Jessica said...

Good for you!! I'm almost 8 weeks post partum with my second daughter and bringing sexy back is going to take a while for me this time. My body changed a lot with this pregnancy and I think it's going to take a lot to get it back.

PS. I really enjoy reading your blog!

Solar Powered said...

10 weeks in and I'm equally "blah". I'm with you, think that my former workout class would help, but seriously I have to leave my little girl?

amy said...

I could've written this post myself! i totally get where you are coming from. I've just started working out again to get rid of the last 7 lbs of baby weight but it's hard...i look different...it's been an adjustment.

Good luck on getting your "sexy back"!

Burtons Blessings said...

I SO feel the same way! Good for you for getting out there :)

Rebecca said...

Ooooh...intriguing! It's good to bring the sexy back! The picture of the rock cracked me up!

Sarah said...

Good for you!! I'm sure your husband is all for it :)

andrea said...

I feel you on the "blahh". am there currently.

Sounds like a fun class though - I may have to look into one in my area!

Jessica said...

That's awesome! I looked for one of those classes in my area, but we don't have any here in the bible belt. Oh well. Enjoy it and bring your sexy back!

Anonymous said...

two years after my daughter's birth and I still struggle with getting the sexy back...good for you for taking the initiative. The mommy side really does take over and it's difficult to separate that from the "sexy wife" side. There's also these crazy hormonal issues that no one talks about. 2 years later and I still feel like I'm on a hormonal roller coaster. I was never that way pre-baby. It sux.

Emily said...

Sad to say, but I could have written this myself! Mom-Em has totally taken over, and the stubborn baby weight isn't helping. Glad you got your mojo back though! :)

soxchamps said...

Same here, and I had though of the same solution. There is even a studio near me just for that, but it is so expensive. Maybe someday poor DH will have his crazy girl back.

Ms. M said...

You. are. my. hero.

CheekyMonkey said...

I could have written this post myself, except I'm still afraid of going to a pole dancing class. and probably wont' ever. Which leads me to ask, is the pole the only way to bring the sexy back? Or is mine gone forever?

LeAnna said...

Geez, guess we're not alone. Totally feel you on this one! I'm also almost back to my pre-wedding weight, but I feel like my style is about as exciting as an episiotomy.

Dianne said...

Good for you!!!

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