There. I said it. You people who are so bummed on Cycle #4... I get it. I was there. I am all for a post that says:
"Damn it, AF showed. I'm bummed. This sucks." I feel ya sister, good luck next time!
The ones that get under me skin go more like this:
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? THIS IS SO UNFAIR. WHY ARE ALL MY FRIENDS KNOCKED UP ON CYCLE #1 AND I HAVE TO WAIT. I WANT A BABY NOW!!!!"
Now you may think that I'm over dramatizing this, but I'm not. I see those on a regular basis and I try to be nice and respond that 4 months is still well within normal range, you just have to be a little patient, etc. etc. when my brain is screaming:
"Seriously? You're on freaking cycle #4. 4 months. FOUR MEASLY MONTHS. Try adding another 17 months on to that and then we'll talk. 4 months is not waiting. This is ri-goddamn-diculous."
So I'm a bitch. So sue me. I don't really care. I know I'll get comments that I'm making this out to be a pissing contest about who can be the most bummed. I'm not bummed, I passed bummed oh, about 13 months ago. I'm on to completely terrified that I will never carry my own child, that we won't be able to afford to adopt until we're into our mid-thirties. Four months? Try the prospect of 5+ years.
I hate to say it but the person who has only tried a couple months just cannot understand the pain that is infertility. They just can't. I can't even describe it. I would never compare my own pain to someone who has been trying for 30 cycles... 40 cycles...longer. I cannot imagine it and I know for a fact that I'm not even on the same level as they are , pain-wise.
I'm sorry. I just had to get this off of my chest. It isn't a pissing contest, it is reality. It hurts more the longer you've been at it, end of story. Not that you can't complain, not that you can't be bummed...by all means, share. I truly do understand how you're feeling. But take a step back before you go off the deep end with grief because girl, you don't even know the meaning.
There. My .02 cents.
"Opinions are like assholes...everybody's got one."