So, last season they aired the show where Run's wife, Justine, lost her baby... a little girl that was born stillborn. On this particular show Justine was watching her sister's little girl who probably was around the same age as her own daughter would have been if she had lived. This woman didn't show a ounce of feeling sorry for herself, she could have wallowed in it, any maybe she did when the cameras were off but I like to think she didn't. I hope to handle my own situation with that much grace. So even though I do have my moments where I whine and bitch and feel sorry, hey I'm human and I'm not going to pretend I'm perfect on this blog, I am still thankful that I haven't experienced loss like so many girls I chat with or loss so far along like this woman did. I'm pulling myself up by my bootstraps and even though my spotting showed up on 10 dpo yesterday I'm still not going to feel sorry about it.
Anyways, really random thankfulness but for some reason this show really opened my eyes up a little, or maybe brought me down from my high horse named Self-Pity. I'm letting old Self-Pity out to pasture for awhile. I'm not going to guarantee I won't be sad when AF shows next week, but I'm not going to wallow because after thinking about her situation I just don't feel like I have that right.
"Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough."