Eat.Pray.Love...

I'm going to keep my New Years resolutions simple this year. Stealing them from the name of book I haven't even had the chance to read yet...

Eat.

I'm going to eat better and ideally lose 10 pounds. However, since Rob and I are raging foodies this does not mean diet. I love good food and good wine but my resolution means eating things I *really* want to eat, not just eating crap for the sake of eating. No more grabbing Burger King if I'm out and about and don't want to wait to get home, no more drinking crappy wine because someone offers it to me. We'll go out to nice restaurants and I will eat whatever I want, and have a glass of nice wine, but I'll eat to really enjoy it, for the experience of it. I'm also going to start going to the gym during lunch at work. It is right around the corner, I can do it!

Pray.

I need to find a church that will work for both of us. Rob is more conservative and was raised in pretty out there churches, I on the other hand am very liberal and was raised Presbyterian. It will be a challenge, but there has got to be a happy medium, right?

Love.

2006 and 2007 have been so consumed with this "quest" to get pregnant that I think we've lost a little bit of the "spark" that used to be there whenever we were together. In all honestly, it is obvious that this isn't going to come easily for us but I think I have to look at this as an opportunity for us to spend even more quality time together before becoming parents. So 2008 is going to be about us. We're going to plan trips and take weekend mini-breaks and I'm going to start jumping Rob for the fun of it rather than for the baby-making aspect of it. Lucky him!

This "Love" resolution also applies to my friends. I've been having such a hard time dealing with our infertility that I've neglected some of my friends because honestly they just don't get it. This year I'm going to make a concerted effort to be the friend I used to be, pre-infertility.

Basically my New Years resolutions are about making our life not revolve around our infertility. Yeah, it sucks but it will not suck the life out of me. I will eat, I will pray and I will love and maybe, somewhere in the middle, we'll have a baby. Our life will be full and happy with the addition of a baby, but not *because* of a baby. So for 2008...eat.pray.love and a baby? Maybe...

I hope everyone had a safe and fun New Years Eve and here's to a fabulous 2008!

"Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams."

- Ashley Smith