Knocked Up...

So according to my doctor I am definitely knocked up. Ok, so he didn't really say it that way, but I AM! My beta just almost doubled in 48 hours, my number was 315.2. At first I was really concerned that it didn't double, until I was reassured by many that they like to see it double within 48-72 hours so... I'm good to get this pregnancy party started.

I haven't felt much in the way of symptoms. I get crampy here and there, which obviously freaks me out because they remind me so much of AF cramps, but as someone told me, think of it as if Baby M. is saying "Hey, I'm still here, just getting comfortable, stretching out and settling down for the long haul." Another symptom is that I can clean a plate like nobodies business. I've never been one to go to a restaurant and completely clean my plate, and be tempted to lick it clean, but I'm totally that person now. But I'm still keeping it healthy, so basically I'm eating a lot of healthy things not junk food, because I can easily gain 50 lbs. I was the girl who gained the freshman 50 instead of the freshman 15. I went from 100 to 150 from high school to college, I'm sure I could do it again...but I'm going to make a concerted effort not to. Other than that my only side effects from being pregnant are that since I've completely gone cold turkey on caffeine,(I know I don't have to but I'm not taking any risks with Baby M. we've waiting too long her him/her/them), I had a rough couple days of caffeine withdrawal. Horrid headaches and nausea that was so bad I almost thought it was early morning sickness, but it quickly subsided and I feel fine now.

I went to dinner with a friend tonight who does not and will not know that we're pregnant until we're out of the first trimester. Luckily I got to the restaurant before her and was able to order a gin and tonic, otherwise known as a sprite and lime, in order not to raise any suspicions. I'm not a huge drinker, but it would be strange for me not to have a cocktail or a glass of wine when out to dinner with my friends. The waitress was very understanding, when I asked her if I could have a sprite with lime, but if she could possibly refer to it as a gin and tonic when my friend got there, a look of total understanding came across her face. "Ooooh, you're pregnant! Don't worry, people do this all the time. Congratulations!" It was so exciting hearing those words. I almost wanted to look behind me to see who she was talking to, I'm still so not used to this and it still hasn't sunk in all the way. Although when I was drinking my faux G & T it started to feel pretty real!

After dinner friend and I went to my favorite store I cannot afford clothes to, Anthropologie. Guess what I did with every item of clothing I tried on in the dressing room? Stuck my stomach out as far as it would go to see how the top or dress would look when I start to show. And let me tell you, with the lovely current bloat I have going on, it isn't too far of a stretch to look a little pregnant. I didn't end up buying anything, but do have to admit, I looked pretty darn cute as a pregnant person!

My first ultrasound is scheduled for May 19th at 3:15 pm. I don't know how I'm going to wait that long. You'd think that after two years waiting 19 days would be a piece of cake, but unfortunately, even with two years of infertility under my belt, patience is definitely not my greatest virtue. I really do want to sit back and enjoy just being pregnant, and I will, I just want to know that Baby M. is growing and doing everything he or she should. It isn't that far away though. I'm not sure if we'll be able to hear the heartbeat since it will only be just about 7 weeks, but I am hoping and praying by some miracle we get to. And yes, I am totally going to cry like a baby when we hear it.

And just for fun... here is my 4 weeks, 2 days belly pic. And yes, I'm totally trying to suck it in because the bloat is killing me!

"Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible."

-Claude T Bissell