It’s been awhile. Is anyone still out there?
It's like that awkward feeling when bump into someone at the grocery store who you haven't seen since like, high school, and you know who they are, and they clearly recognize you, but can't remember their name. In my case, as I've told the Mr. "this is when you jump in, once 5 seconds goes by without my introducing you... and introduce yourself, because CLEARLY I have forgotten their name." He never ever does it, damn him. Have you forgotten me in my hiatus?
Let me re-introduce myself, "I'm Beverley, formerly hoping for just one thing, a baby, (which was a, at the time, very definite maybe)...and had my happy ending, or, happy beginning I should say--times 2." Nice to see you around these parts again. You can stay, or you can go but I won't be offended if you've forgotten me, there are so many of us in these parts these days.
I had plans last year, where I last left off. When I dropped off the face of the blogosphere. Plans to write. A year of birth stories and growing babies and toddling toddler-dom and life in general to share. But, as always, life gets in the way. In my case it wasn’t anything dramatic, no getting hit by the proverbial mac truck or anything like that, but more of a steady layering effect until you couldn’t see me anymore. Smothered by the requirements that I put upon myself to be mother, daughter, provider, decision maker...the usual. I did it to myself, thinking I’m some sort of uber-super-mama-delux version of myself, but, much to my chagrin, I have found that I’m a mere mortal. Mortals fall apart, and I think, just maybe, I may be beginning to find myself again in picking up the pieces.
Interested? Hopefully. I'd like to be back to this world. I liked it here.
Zoe is 1 and 1 month. Lucy is 3 and 3 months…and I’ve missed you strangers out there. We’ve got a lot of catching up to do.
"You cannot wait for the perfect time, sometimes you just have to jump."