Last night I had convinced myself that Rob's sperm count would be non-existent. I don't know why. I suppose since they didn't tell me over the phone anything about his test results that I assumed the worst, that is so me!
So I'm driving like a maniac to get to the Doctor's office, I'm late, as always. When I finally get there I'm huffing and puffing like I just ran a 10k. I've really got to work on this always being late, it's my worst habit. No one even seemed to bat an eye that I was 15 minutes late though, thank goodness!
So here it goes. Worst thing about my appointment... I've gained 3 pounds since my last appointment last month. UGH! No wonder my pants felt tight! That is it... that is the worst thing! Nothing some visits to the gym won't cure... and maybe laying off the french fries a bit, right?
Best thing(s) about my appointment... after all that hassle and stress that went along with Rob's SA, everything is perfectly normal! I'm so glad! I was so worried and now that just lifts a mountain of stress off of my back. Secondly, my doctor gave me the option of either having my HSG and doing Clomid together or trying Clomid on its own for three months first. I went with the latter and the doctor agreed that she thought that was the least invasive route. I'm all about less invasiveness thankyouverymuch! Amazingly enough I needed to start Clomid cycle day 5... guess what tomorrow is? Cycle day FIVE! I'm so thankful that they squeezed me in today because that means we can get this show on the road asap. I feel so incredibly good and feel like this is a leap forward for us after months of baby steps!
I called Rob right after my appointment and told him the good news. First and foremost I think he was very glad that his manhood, AKA his sperm, is still intact. Then I told him about the Clomid, which he thought was great until I mentioned the possible side-effects. You know, mood-swings, hot flashes, nausea....
Rob: "Wait a second. You said moodiness?"
Rob: "You mean you're going to get moodier than you already are?"
Me: "What is that supposed to mean? I'm not that bad!!"
Rob: "Babe, I love you, but you are the moodiest person I know."
Me (about to get very offended and then I realize...): "Hmmm. I guess I am a little moody, sometimes...once in awhile...alright, all the time! Sucks to be you! Ha!"
It was a pretty funny conversations because honestly, I am moooooody. It's just the way I'm made, I'm so thankful he deals with it with such grace!
Another thing that makes me just so thankful, the amazing, overwhelming, incredible amount of support I have. Now I get my support in a couple different places. One is Rob... he puts up with so much and he is fantastic. A lesser man would have gone crazy by now. Second are my two friends, Lindsay and Carrie, that actually know about our infertility. Both of them were practically screaming into the phone they were so excited that Rob's results were good and that I'm going onto the next step. Lastly is my Nesties from Babies on the Brain. I came back from work and wanted to post an update on my trip to the doctor and find 5 different posts asking if anyone had heard from me, after I post my update I get a ton of responses. These girls are so supportive, I feel like I've got good thoughts an prayers coming in from every direction. It is incredible!
Today was a good day.
"What lies behind us, and what lies before us, are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson