Woke up at 4:45. Lucy had joined us, as she usually does at some point in the middle of the night, and was all snuggled up into my armpit (lucky for her I did shower the night before in anticipation of my early morning). Rob was snoring on the other side. I was actually wide awake although it was such a nice, snugly place I really didn't want to get up.
After washing my face and putting on my makeup I was surprised to find a wide awake baby with a wide awake Rob at about 5:15. Oh man, this is going to make for a tired baby later. I get ready and am out of the hour by 5:35...with Rob and Lucy waving goodbye at the door.
I do pretty well at work, getting some solid work done with none of the usual interruptions for a good 2 hours in the morning. I'm feeling good. Totally awake. Amazing...
Fast forward to several hours later... getting a little yawny. A little fuzzy around the edges...
Luckily it was almost 3:00 by the time I started really dragging. Unfortunately, by the time I got home with Lucy I was reeaaally tired. As in I had to fight to keep my eyes open when we were playing on the floor. Not to mention she starting snubbing me again from the time I excitedly picked her up at my moms. I was so excited to be home early, Luce...not so much. Back to being mad at me for going back to work. So that made me sad all over again. It was a tough night.
I realize its a learning curve for all of us. My body needs to adjust to the early mornings. Lucy has to get used to Mama going to work during the day. Hopefully everything will fall into place soon.
It's only the first day. I'm hoping its going to work. I think it might...
Now its time to relax with a cup of tea and the latest season of the Tudors on DVD...and asleep by 9:30.
“Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”